The Night House

by Jessie Barr

by Billy Collins

*artwork by  Stella Maria Baer

*artwork by Stella Maria Baer

The Night House

Every day the body works in the fields of the world
Mending a stone wall
Or swinging a sickle through the tall grass-
The grass of civics, the grass of money-
And every night the body curls around itself
And listens for the soft bells of sleep.

But the heart is restless and rises
From the body in the middle of the night,
Leaves the trapezoidal bedroom
With its thick, pictureless walls
To sit by herself at the kitchen table
And heat some milk in a pan.

And the mind gets up too, puts on a robe
And goes downstairs, lights a cigarette,
And opens a book on engineering.
Even the conscience awakens
And roams from room to room in the dark,
Darting away from every mirror like a strange fish.

And the soul is up on the roof
In her nightdress, straddling the ridge,
Singing a song about the wildness of the sea
Until the first rip of pink appears in the sky.
Then, they all will return to the sleeping body
The way a flock of birds settles back into a tree,

Resuming their daily colloquy,
Talking to each other or themselves
Even through the heat of the long afternoons.
Which is why the body-the house of voices-
Sometimes puts down its metal tongs, its needle, or its pen
To stare into the distance,

To listen to all its names being called
Before bending again to its labor.

Billy Collins
American Poet Laureate 2002


by Jessie Barr

When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space.

- Pema Chodron

Wisdom to Commit to Memory

by Jessie Barr

1. I am aligned with friends and lovers who support me, learn with me, call me out, and grow with me.

2. I choose projects and professional ties that touch my heart, enhance my clarity and my confidence, and perpetuate prosperity. 

3. I practice to dissolve my doubt. I trust myself.

- Elena Brower

without fear or need to speak

by Jessie Barr

"I am learning not to fling names at things. Even when I write or think simply rock,  river, light, mountain, I begin to see through the word to the thing, to be alone with the thing, the rock, this light on my hands, without fear or need to speak. 

Things exist in the unnameable. Sometimes I am freed by this landscape to see them as they are and not wish to name them. Sometimes, as the rocks glow in the late sun,  or the river flashes suddenly between boulders, or two birds hide in a burst of light above me, I understand that all names fall short of the shining of things. And that understanding, while it lasts is peace."


Andrew Harvey,  A Journey in Ladakh

Full M O O N

by Jessie Barr

Happy Full M O O N Lunar Eclipse in Libra!

When the earth comes between the moon & the sun
the moon is in the earth's shadow & the earth's particles in the atmosphere refracting the sun light cause the moon to appear red = Blood Moon
The full moon illuminates the unconscious part of our life that often relates to relationships/esteem. With this full moon in Libra- how do you relate to people- how you hold yourself in relationship with others and yourself?
Now is a sweet time to make decisions from a place of value in yourself and to emerge out of the shadows and into your fullness.

Begin - creating a meditation practice

by Jessie Barr

The word 'meditation' means not only to ponder, to think over, to probe, to look, to weigh, it also has a much deeper meaning in Sanskrit - 'to become.'

- Jiddu Krishnamurti

Meditation helps you know yourself better, appreciate yourself and others more, and sleep more soundly. It helps you be more efficient and creative, hold onto less stress, be more balanced and become more comfortable in your own skin.
- Elena Brower

Meditation is a way of greeting ourselves, a way of seeing ourselves and being gentle with ourselves. Even if it's just for a few moments a day sitting in softness with a bit of quiet, making space in our minds and in our hearts. 


Meditation Design

Craft a Sitting Space


Create a sweet space for yourself.

Where is an area in your home / bedroom that you can craft as a sacred space. By a window? Against a wall? A cozy corner?

Option to have a small puja ( altar) with images, words, figures that inspire devotion, love, compassion.


10 min once a day working up to 15min twice a day

Morning or Night

Choose one and begin there.

Using a timer maybe the app ( I-Qi)

If possible try to do they same time every morning / night.

If not possible no worries but honor the space and time for yourself by committing to it.


To begin practice the clearing exercise

( a Tantric Buddhist practice)

Exhaling anything on your mind, all the mundane ordinary thoughts and inhaling warm, gentle light.

If it inspires you or feeds you give the color a hue- a golden white light, for example.


  • A Woman’s Book of Meditation - by Hari Kaur Khalsa 

  • Making Space ( Creating a Home Meditation Practice) - Thich Nhat Hanh 

The BIG you

by Jessie Barr

Sharing a beautiful piece by my friend Adriana Rizzolo at AWAKENED FEMININE.  This post discusses more of the female perspective but is deeply relevant for all beings.  Encouraging communication and waking up to our own power.

"On any path of transformation, there are times when we forget the sparkly-ness of our hearts and souls, our deep purpose for being here.  We can get so caught up in life calling us to action in every moment that the big picture can start to feel far away, or at times nonexistent.  Have you ever moved yourself into a territory so new to you are that there is NO WAY you could even know how to be at first? 

If you are committed to living a happy and fulfilling life then you will experience this at some point or another.  To grow and move forward into your purpose, you must be willing to put down parts of you that may have been hurting and instead, embrace a different way of being, a new way of living.

In our experience, it is especially important during these significant times of change to reflect to each other the power and beauty we see being cultivated. 

As women, we are so lucky right now to have the support of the many ways women can work on themselves.  There is a ton of self-help, women’s empowerment, yoga, and even feminism coming back loud and strong.  One of the tools we use at Awakened Feminine is to be a soul beauty reminder for each other.  It’s not just about connecting together as women- it is about recognizing one another on a soul level.  When this connection is shared between each other, as simple as it may seem, it is really profound. It is about recognizing, supporting and REMINDING each other how good we are.  How much love we deserve, and the infinite power that we all own.

Recently I had a moment with Taryn where I realized I hadn’t been expressing that to her.  We have both been in the midst of some big healing and transformation, big life shifts in different ways.  To the point where we both realized we didn’t even know who we were anymore, or we had forgotten.  Because we have both grown and expanded TREMENDOUSLY in the past few months, we weren’t used to being totally connected to the power of our new states and situations yet.

This is where AF comes in!  I began to reflect on how I saw Taryn, and it was so cool how much beauty and wisdom I could see in her face- almost feel it pouring through the skin.  I began to tell her how I saw her as this different woman that was so profoundly wise, connected to her power- ready to not only step into but be and own who she is now, in a whole new way.  And when I woke up I thought about that very same thing and sent her an AF soul beauty reminder text!  Reminding her to remember how good and how beautiful she is and how she is doing amazing work in her everyday life. How I admire her for knowing what she needs, when she needs it, and for her ability to communicate so clearly and lovingly as a mother and friend.


I saw how much this absorbed into her, how beneficial this kind of communication was to her, and how it really did serve as a mirror for her. It fed her, and it replenished her. And it nourished the connection between us! (which is amazing considering we have a pretty nourished relationship!).

That is what makes this kind of connection between women so special. It feeds everyone and brings love to everyone. It wakes everyone up to their power.  So we invite you to reach out to a woman in your life today and reflect to her how you see her, tell her the inner beauty you see. Let’s move the love forward and fill our own hearts in the process."


by Jessie Barr

Today and everyday may we practice being gentle

Gentle with ourselves and gentle with each other

Even if it's just for a few moments a day sitting in softness with a bit of quiet

Making space in our minds and in our hearts